Hey Pokkeyy.. welcome to the board!! It is great to have another woman with your "strength and conditioning" background!! i hope to hang around and contribute!!
OK.. girl, i am not going to tell you anything right now that you don't already know!! AAS do not burn fat.. but you knew that already.. secondly, IMO i would really like you to give your body a chance naturally to hit its peak!! you have no idea genetically what you have potential for! it is IMO that a woman should take her body as far as she can go prior to including aas in the mix.. plus like you mentioned before, when you were "on" you slacked.. and aas do not give you the freedom of slacking!

ya feel me sister??
i personally feel that you should get back on track and get 100% dedicated prior to starting up a cycle.. get a good fat burner! get your body weight down a bit before you start packing on the muscle.. or else ( and you know this) you are gonna look a bit bulky and that can be very discouraging to someone getting back into the game!! I made the mistake of bulking once while my bodyfat was high.. OMG i did not want to leave my house i felt i looked so huge!! So now when i do decide to pack on some size, i make sure i am lean going into it lol.. much better approach IMO because then the muscle i am putting on is lean muscle and not muscle covered by a damn layer of fat...
so.. if you were my client, my advice would be a good clean high protein, low carb, mod fat diet, a good cardio/weight training program, some good supplements (R-ala, fat burner etc) and give your body a good 3 months to get itself back where it is comfortable being.. then you will still have time to do a summer cutter and look fantastic in a bikini
that is my honest from a woman to woman advice!!
BUT if you are like me, you won't listen to a damn thing i just said and get yourself some clen, T3, anavar and gh lol... i am so damn impatient sometimes... but damn did i look good on that cycle.. can't wait to start back up...
luv super